Friday, June 2, 2017

Strength during a Storm

Countless experiences have taught me that every sincere prayer uttered is heard.  I'm always astounded at the answers and how they come.... some answers come instantly, and some years later. I need to document a recent experience I had with prayer for my family, friends, and others who ever doubt if there is someone listening.

It's difficult to even put into words what it's like raising a child like Bridger.  This has been the most challenging/rewarding thing I've ever experienced.  It has tested us beyond my limits, and thankfully Heavenly Father has been there to help carry us through.  

I try my best to maintain an eternal perspective as Bridger continually suffers and battles countless physical issues and discomforts;  this isn't going to be forever, it is just a small moment.  Bridger will eventually be exalted and be made perfect.  

Several months ago, Bridger started doing amazing...  He was having fantastic nights where he'd sleep through the night, his vomiting was decreasing, and overall, he was happier and pleasant during the day.  We were so excited about this and weren't sure what brought it on- as nothing we had done had changed.  

Sadly, this didn't last forever.  The yuckiness came back, he started throwing up every night before bed, during the night he'd wake multiple times crying, hurting, and throwing up, and then again in the morning he'd awake early and throw up again.  He was miserable and sad all the time and acted like he was hurting. Days were hard, nights were harder--- it just seemed like he couldn't shake it and the there was no end in sight.  When Bridger isn't doing well, it starts to take it's toll.   During this time, I took him into the doc over the course of two months at least a dozen times for consultations, antibiotics, and such as they kept saying it was an ear infecion.  We also saw the ENT twice- and he would say the opposite- NO ear infection.  SO, what's a mom to do.  One doc says one thing, one says another.....all of which resulted in no diffinitive answers.

On the way home from the last doctor visit, I lost it.  After leaving with NO answers again, my emotions were on my sleeve.  As I drove, I prayed out loud through the tears, asking Heavenly Father what to do.  I try and try and try....and fail and fail and fail.... and can't seem to find anyone to figure out what's wrong or help relieve him from his sufferings.  Watching your child suffer continually is the most difficult thing to endure.  I poured my heart out and put it all out on the table.

When we got home, we continued about our day and then later that same evening, I received a text from a friend I hadn't touched base with in a while. 

In her text she said: "I'm reading this book that I'm loving.  There is a chapter in here that I can't help but share with you":

Some would call this pure coincidence....  To me, this was a direct answer from a loving Father in Heaven, to me, a mother questioning how to continue on raising this precious son with so many needs. After reading this, which I know was a direct answer to my pleading prayer that day, I instantly fell to my knees in gratitude to my Father in Heaven for the way he spoke to my heart and calmed my storm.  This answered prayer has lead me to have more strength, more gratitude, and a deeper love for my Father in Heaven. 

I'll be ever thankful to this sweet friend for acting on a prompting and being the instrument in God's hands to provide the answer I was so desperately looking for.

Just as we are promised in James 1:5- "If you lack wisdom...ask of God."  I can say without any reservations, he will answer, he will help you through your storms.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

GQ with the Leg Cross

Bridger has some little quarks that just get me everytime.  Right now, this is one of them.  He has this thing for crossing his leg!  It's the dang cutest thing ever!  It never fails-- in his carseat, everytime he falls asleep, he first has to cross his leg.  In his wheelchair, I will find him randomly crossing his leg, too.  Mr. Leg Crosser--- you are the cutest!

Kindred Spirits

So many stars have aligned for our family to meet the Jeppson family.  We have had TWO separate and distinct experiences that have led me to believe that we are being brought together by angels from the other side.  There is no other way to explain it.  Seeing these boys together is something that will leave you speechless with your heart about to explode.  And notice their hands, that was all on their own.   I wonder what these two would say if they could talk with each other.  They are both unable to speak, but their actions communicate volumes. .  The stories they would tell....  Someday.  I know we will get to hear all about it.  I can hardly wait!!!

Mr. Popular

A couple weeks back, two of my darling friends and I had a lunch date.  Of course, lunch dates do include kids tagging along, since that is the stage we are all in. ;)  Entertainment was the I-pad. I loved how these sweet boys who are all super close in age gathered around Bridger and were showing him how to play.  It was the sweetest sight!

Monday, September 12, 2016

Rock N' and Roll N'

Look at him go.....

Miracle on Wheels...

After months and months and millions of prayers--- a miracle happened.

Let me back up.  Back in January this year we had another insurance switch.  Also, at that same time I was questioning whether or not Bridgers stroller/wheelchair was the right fit for him.  He hated to be in it, and at times would only last 5 minutes.  I met with multiple agencies trying everything in my power to find a way to get him a new wheelchair, one that was low to the ground, one he could push, one that would be comfortable and also one that would help push him to have more core and neck control.  After running into countless dead ends, I finally threw in the towel and decided I would fight the fight in another year or so.

Well----fast forward to July of this year.  I took Bridger up to Shriners and while there we met with a NEW employee working in the wheelchair department.  He instantly was my favorite, from the way he communicated with Bridger, his genuine interest in his health issues, and his concern for making sure Bridger has the best seating possible.  

During this appointment he proclaimed- "I will create a new chair for him with all the bells and whistles you want."  I could have just hugged that man!  I wasn't expecting this at all, so I was beyond surprised and excited.  It just confirmed to me that our prayers are heard and answered --- in due time, in his own way.

It took just a couple weeks for Shriners to work their magic and then we headed back up to pick it up.
Brecken tagged along with me to help me.  I was amazed at how well Breck handled things- from catching Bridgers puke on the car ride multiple times, to helping pack luggage to and from our room, entertained Bridger while we were in all the waiting rooms, and so much more.  Plus, I loved spending time with him.  He is at such a great age and so fun to be around.  We had some great conversations.

The last few trips north we have been staying at the Ronald McDonald house.  It is such an amazing place and I'm so glad I finally gave it a shot.  We feel so blessed to have that place so close to both hospitals.  It makes our appointments so much more doable knowing we can stay close by and not have to get up and leave by 4 a.m.

This trip in particular when we checked into our room we found the cutest gift awaiting us:
This bag chucked full of awesome goods:
FINALLY--- the moment we had been praying and awaiting.   (Notice Bridger looking up?)  There guys right here are our miracle workers:
And just like that, Bridger aged 5 years!   This day was SO much fun taking him around in his new wheels-- watching him figure out how to push the wheels by himself made my heart burst with joy!  It didn't take him long at all to start experimenting with pushing himself.

And judging that smile---- he is very happy about his new wheels, too!
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